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drummyfish.md

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 Drummyfish experiences a lot of discrimination but still doesn't hate his discriminators. As a straight white male in [21st century](21st_century.md) drummyfish is a victim of regular discrimination and racism in form of social revenge for historical events he has nothing to do with. Drummyfish is not covid vaccinated -- for this he was sorted into the second class of citizens during the covid pandemic and experienced another form of discrimination, e.g. what today would be called a "verbal abuse", segregation and so on. He never had covid. As a [Slav](slav.md) he comes from an ancestry of slaves, so in [America](usa.md) he would be called a [hero](hero_culture.md). Drummyfish was baptized and is NOT circumcised. He has [hallux varus](body_shaming.md) (foot toes oddly spaced from the rest of the fingers) -- this makes him be able to grab things with his feet and climb trees well, like a monkey.
 
-Drummyfish's real name is Miloslav (NOT Miroslav) Číž, he was born in the blessed year [1990](1990.md) (Chinese year of the Horse), on 24th of August ([Virgo](wizard.md)), and lives in Moravia, [Czech Republic](czechia.md), [Earth](earth.md) (he rejects the concept of a country/[nationalism](nationalism.md), the info here serves purely to specify a location). He spent his childhood happily in times when [memes](meme.md) didn't exist yet, when households didn't normally have computers, yet alone [Internet](internet.md), and people didn't even own cell phones, when TV with three channels in total was the peak of technology. Drummyfish's family got their first computer in 1997, with [Windows](windows.md) 3.1, of course, without any access to the [Internet](internet.md), just plain old horizontal-case PC with CRT, ball [mouse](mouse.md) and a floppy drive. At that time he became fascinated with games such as [Wolf3D](wold3d.md) and Duke Nukem 2 -- that's when he decided he wanted to one day be making his own [games](game.md). He became deeply fascinated with computers, cell phones and video games and asked himself "How are video games made? How is it possible to program ANYTHING?". He thought about this before sleep and even came up with an idea of [flowcharts](flowchart.md), a visual language with which it would be possible to "program anything". Even though his family didn't have too much money, he cried and cried all days until he achieved a [Gameboy](gameboy.md) Color, and later on even Gameboy Advance! He was extremely happy about it and played [Pokemon](pokemon.md) (Yellow, Crystal and Emerald) all day and night, however many years later he would realize the Gameboys were nowehere to be found and therefore lost -- what a disaster! As the family PC got upgraded, he was able to start playing the newest hits and came to love especially [Warcraft III](warcraft3.md) (played as Orc), [Trackmania](trackmania.md), [Quake 3](quake3.md), The Elder Scrolls (Morrowind, Oblivion, Skyrim) and much later also [World of Warcraft](wow.md) (since vanilla, quit during WotLK, played tauren warrior named *Drummy*). His family acquired permanent Internet connection at home in 2006, as drummyfish was leaving elementary school.
+Drummyfish's real name is Miloslav (NOT Miroslav) Číž, he was born in the blessed year [1990](1990.md) (Chinese year of the Horse), on 24th of August ([Virgo](wizard.md)), and lives in Moravia, [Czech Republic](czechia.md), [Earth](earth.md) (he rejects the concept of a country/[nationalism](nationalism.md), the info here serves purely to specify a location). He spent his childhood happily in times when [memes](meme.md) didn't exist yet, when households didn't normally have computers, yet alone [Internet](internet.md), and people didn't even own cell phones, when TV with three channels in total was the peak of technology. Drummyfish's family got their first computer in 1997, with [Windows](windows.md) 3.1, of course, without any access to the [Internet](internet.md), just plain old horizontal-case PC with CRT, ball [mouse](mouse.md) and a floppy drive. At that time he became fascinated with [games](game.md) such as [Wolf3D](wold3d.md) and Duke Nukem 2 -- that's when he decided he wanted to one day be making his own [games](game.md). He became deeply fascinated with computers, cell phones and video games and asked himself "How are video games made? How is it possible to program ANYTHING?". He thought about this before sleep and even came up with an idea of [flowcharts](flowchart.md), a visual language with which it would be possible to "program anything". Even though his family didn't have too much money, he cried and cried all days until he achieved a [Gameboy](gameboy.md) Color, and later on even Gameboy Advance! He was extremely happy about it and played [Pokemon](pokemon.md) (Yellow, Crystal and Emerald) all day and night, however many years later he would realize the Gameboys were nowehere to be found and therefore lost -- what a disaster! As the family PC got upgraded, he was able to start playing the newest hits and came to love especially [Warcraft III](warcraft3.md) (played as Orc), [Trackmania](trackmania.md), [Quake 3](quake3.md), The Elder Scrolls (Morrowind, Oblivion, Skyrim) and much later also [World of Warcraft](wow.md) (since vanilla, quit during WotLK, played tauren warrior named *Drummy* on server *Agamaggan* { If you are one of my old WoW friends, please, I beg you, let me know, I would love to talk to you. ~drummyfish }). His family acquired permanent Internet connection at home in 2006, as drummyfish was leaving elementary school.
 
 { Why doxx myself? Following the [LRS](lrs.md) philosophy, I believe information should be free. [Censorship](censorship.md) -- even in the name of [privacy](privacy.md) -- goes against information freedom. We should live in a society in which people are moral and don't abuse others by any means, including via availability of their private information. And in order to achieve ideal society we have to actually live it, i.e. slowly start to behave as if it was already in place. Of course, I can't tell you literally everything (such as my passwords etc.), but the more I can tell you, the closer we are to the ideal society. ~drummyfish }
 
-He likes many things such as animals, peace, [freedom](freedom.md), [programming](programming.md), [math](math.md) and [games](game.md). Drummyfish used to be a """pro""" at [Xonotic](xonotic.md) and [OpenArena](openarena.md), had dedicated years to the them (even though he despises [competitive](competition.md) behavior [in real life](irl.md)) but he quit the games after Xonotic developers fucked the game up at which time he also realized the games kind of enslaved him -- he misses the games and some of the players a little bit but has in general been a bit happier not playing them. He plays piano and drums a little bit and tries to pick up new things like [chess](chess.md), [go](go.md), crocheting or [language](human_language.md) learning (he speaks [Czech](czech.md)/Slovak natively, [English](english.md), a bit of [Spanish](spanish.md) and a few animal languages, mainly [cat](cat.md), [dog](dog.md) and a little bit of chicken). He has [no sense of smell](anosmia.md) (since birth). He is around 175 cm tall, right handed and has blood type AB. According to the psychology astrology he is [INTJ](intj.md), and also has mild [synesthesia](synesthesia.md). He got [IQ](iq.md) measured quite high by Mensa but he think it's basically [bullshit](bullshit.md), he's pretty slow at mental calculations and quite retarded at many things. For [fun](fun.md) drummyfish likes to stalk (online) and triangulate various people, from video clues he was able to track down for example [Luke Smith](luke_smith.md) and Chessbrah house. As a kid he used to draw a comic called *Ted The Supercrow* (now scanned, translated and released under [CC0](cc0.md)).
+He likes many things such as animals, peace, [freedom](freedom.md), [programming](programming.md), [math](math.md) and [games](game.md). Drummyfish used to be a """pro""" at [Xonotic](xonotic.md) and [OpenArena](openarena.md), had dedicated years to the them (even though he despises [competitive](competition.md) behavior [in real life](irl.md)) but he quit the games after Xonotic developers fucked the game up at which point he also realized the games kind of enslaved him -- he misses the games and some of the players a little bit but has in general been a bit happier not playing them. He plays piano and drums a little bit and tries to pick up new things like [chess](chess.md), [go](go.md), crocheting or [language](human_language.md) learning (he speaks [Czech](czech.md)/Slovak natively, [English](english.md), a bit of [Spanish](spanish.md) and a few animal languages, mainly [cat](cat.md), [dog](dog.md) and a little bit of chicken). He has [no sense of smell](anosmia.md) (since birth). He is around 175 cm tall, right handed and has blood type AB. According to the psychology astrology he is [INTJ](intj.md), and also has mild [synesthesia](synesthesia.md) (mainly [numbers](number.md) to [colors](color.md)). He got [IQ](iq.md) measured quite high by Mensa but he think it's basically [bullshit](bullshit.md), he's pretty slow at mental calculations and quite retarded at many things. For [fun](fun.md) drummyfish likes to stalk (online) and triangulate various people, from video clues he was able to track down for example [Luke Smith](luke_smith.md) and Chessbrah house. As a kid he used to draw a comic called *Ted The Supercrow* (now scanned, translated and released under [CC0](cc0.md)).
 
-Before becoming a kind of schizo, he used to be relatively normal, even had a girlfriend for a while -- for a long time he was a [proprietary](proprietary.md) [Windows](windows.md) normie, using [Facebook](facebook.md) and playing mainstream video games. In the university he started using GNU/Linux because it was convenient for the school work, but still mostly used Windows. Only near the end of his studies he became more interested in [FOSS](foss.md), after reading [Richard Stallman](rms.md)'s biography. At the beginning he promoted "[open source](open_source.md)" and used [soynet](soynet.md) platforms such as [Fediverse](fediverse.md), later on he found the [suckless](suckless.md) website and was enlightened by [minimalism](minimalism.md); he also started to see through the evils of [open $ource](open_source.md), [capitalism](capitalism.md) and other things and refused to conform, which led him to the path of becoming the aforementioned schizo.
+Before becoming a kind of schizo, he used to be relatively normal, even had a girlfriend for a while -- for a long time he was a [proprietary](proprietary.md) [Windows](windows.md) normie, using [Facebook](facebook.md) and playing mainstream video games. In the university he started using [GNU](gnu.md)/[Linux](linux.md) because it was convenient for the school work, but still mostly used Windows. Only near the end of his studies he became more interested in [FOSS](foss.md), after reading [Richard Stallman](rms.md)'s biography. At the beginning he promoted "[open source](open_source.md)" and used [soynet](soynet.md) platforms such as [Fediverse](fediverse.md), later on he found the [suckless](suckless.md) website and was enlightened by [minimalism](minimalism.md); he also started to see through the evils of [open $ource](open_source.md), [capitalism](capitalism.md) and other things and refused to conform, which led him to the path of becoming the aforementioned schizo.
 
 In 2012 drummyfish fell into deep [depression](depression.md) and became convinced he was going blind, he became desperate and cried all the time, additionally ending up with a sort of hardcore burnout and extreme exhaustion, headaches etc., he had to postpone his studies and take a year off -- since then his psychological issues began to worsen, it took around two years just to somewhat recover, however a similarly devastating breakdown came again in 2015 after a failed attempt at discontinuing antidepressants, again requiring a year off for recovery. Since then he would start suffering regular depressive episodes and constant worsening anxiety, eventually resulting in [loss of all real life friends](friend_detox.md) and a level of isolation just shy of [Hikikomori](hikikomori.md). In 2019 drummyfish has written a "manifesto" called **Non-Competitive Society** that describes the concepts and politics (or rather lack thereof) of his ideal society. It is in the [public domain](public_domain.md) under [CC0](cc0.md) and available for download online and was translated to more than zero languages. Around 2020 he spent a few months in a mental institute, where he was working on his game [Anarch](anarch.md), which he got to release at the end of the year. Since leaving the hospital he was forced to do various slaveries such as newspaper and [spam](spam.md) distribution (on a bicycle), janitor/cleaner, night guard in a factory etc. In 2023 drummyfish said "fuck it" and published his nudes on the Internet (under [CC0](cc0.md)); around the same time he also bought a tiny caravan inawoods and plans to live there, away from society. Also in 2023 he lost 30 kg thanks to a combination of diet and depression. He is the only man on [Earth](earth.md) who hates the country in which he happened to come out of vagina. He is a more or less straight [male](man.md) of the [white](white.md) [race](race.md). He started programming at high school in [Pascal](pascal.md), then he went on to study [compsci](compsci.md) (later focused on [computer graphics](graphics.md)) in a Brno University of Technology and got a [master's degree](msc.md) in 2017, however he subsequently refused to find a job in the industry, partly because of his views (manifested by [LRS](lrs.md)) and partly because of mental health issues. He rather chose to stay closer to the working class and do less harmful [slavery](job.md) such as cleaning and physical [spam](spam.md) distribution, and continues [hacking](hacking.md) on his programming (and other) projects in his spare time in order to be able to do it with absolute freedom.
 
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 **Does drummyfish have [divine intellect](terry_davis.md)?** Hell no, he's pretty retarded at most things and would be a complete failure wasn't it for some of his special features -- thanks to his extraordinary tendency for isolation, grand curiosity and obsession with [truth](truth.md) he is possibly the only man on [Earth](earth.md) completely immune to propaganda, he can see the world as it is, not as it is presented, so he feels it is his moral duty to share what he is seeing. He is able to overcome his natural dumbness by tryharding and sacrificing his social and sexual life so that he can program more. If drummyfish can learn to program [LRS](lrs.md), so can you.
 
-**What is drummyfish's fucking problem?** The biggest burden for drummyfish -- the one that he has always struggled with (even if he realized this very late in his life) and which will be with him until death -- is that he is simply extremely, extremely alone. NO, not "alone" in the [incel](incel.md) sense, and not alone in the "[geeky](geek.md)" way, not alone as in being introverted and shy or hated, missing sex or company or attention or compassion, not at all. He has been struggling his whole life to find a HUMAN, a true human being like himself -- of perhaps we should rather say human subspecies of which drummyfish is and always will be the only member. He feels much closer to animals than to people. On the Internet he found a considerable number of "followers" through [LRS](lrs.md) (many of them working at CIA), the expression of his life philosophy, but he never really met a being of the same human subspecies as he is himself. He is alien in a sense -- people exist around him, even what would be called "friends", supporters, "fans", but he has never met a single true human being of the same kind as himself, someone to find absolute mutual understanding with and someone to have a true admiration for. { The closest is probably my mom, only her I ever really admired and felt the closest bond with. I think no one else ever came closer to understanding me and loving me like that. This is probably nothing surprising though. ~drummyfish } A feeling perhaps similar to what the last member of a species that is dying out must feel, except that he doesn't even have any ancestors to think of, it is a feeling of being absolutely alone in the whole Universe, the whole timespace. Hell, he is so lonely he created a whole virtual world, lore, ideology and Internet community with huge ass [wiki](lrs_wiki.md) where he is still the only participant and where he basically just keeps talking to himself. { Also please don't try to fix me or comfort me by saying nice things like "I was like this too, you will find someone", it just pisses me off, you don't know what's going on. I know your intentions are good but don't do it cause it's no use. ~drummyfish } But the feeling of loneliness is only part of the whole tragedy -- it would even be bearable, however the worst part is that drummyfish LOOKS LIKE a normal human so others treat him so, they try to apply things that normally work on people on drummyfish, like talking to him or thanking him or keeping him in company of other people because apparently "humans are social animals" or whatever, and it's just fucking killing him. It's as if you try to treat literal fish like a human, trying to keep it out of water because humans dislike breathing water, trying to feed it human food, put it in human clothes -- you're just going to torture the animal to death.
+**What is drummyfish's fucking problem?** The biggest burden for drummyfish -- the one that he has always struggled with (even if he realized this very late in his life) and which will be with him until death -- is that he is simply extremely, extremely alone. NO, not "alone" in the [incel](incel.md) sense, and not alone in the "[geeky](geek.md)" way, not alone as in being introverted and shy or hated (even if that he is), missing sex or company or attention or compassion, not at all. He has been struggling his whole life to find a HUMAN, a true human being like himself -- of perhaps we should rather say human subspecies of which drummyfish is and always will be the only member. He feels much closer to animals than to people. On the Internet he found a considerable number of "followers" through [LRS](lrs.md) (many of them working at CIA), the expression of his life philosophy, but he never really met a being of the same human subspecies as he is himself. He is alien in a sense -- people exist around him, even what would be called "friends", supporters, "fans", but he has never met a single true human being of the same kind as himself, someone to find absolute mutual understanding with and someone to have a true admiration for. { The closest is probably my mom, only her I ever really admired and felt the closest bond with. I think no one else ever came closer to understanding me and loving me like that. This is probably nothing surprising though. ~drummyfish } A feeling perhaps similar to what the last member of a species that is dying out must feel, except that he doesn't even have any ancestors to think of, it is a feeling of being absolutely alone in the whole Universe, the whole timespace. Hell, he is so lonely he created a whole virtual world, lore, ideology and Internet community with huge ass [wiki](lrs_wiki.md) where he is still the only participant and where he basically just keeps talking to himself. { Also please don't try to fix me or comfort me by saying nice things like "I was like this too, you will find someone", it just pisses me off, you don't know what's going on. I know your intentions are good but don't do it cause it's no use. ~drummyfish } But the feeling of loneliness is only part of the whole tragedy -- it would even be bearable, however the worst part is that drummyfish LOOKS LIKE a normal human so others treat him so, they try to apply things that normally work on people on drummyfish, like talking to him or thanking him or keeping him in company of other people because apparently "humans are social animals" or whatever, and it's just fucking killing him. It's as if you try to treat literal fish like a human, trying to keep it out of water because humans dislike breathing water, trying to feed it human food, put it in human clothes -- you're just going to torture the animal to death.
 
 **Is drummyfish arrogant and [egocentric](egoism.md)?** Maybe yes, he was not once told so, and he admits he is prone to being a shitty being, a disgrace to what he preaches -- yes, he sees it, regrets it and suffers from it, and it's no excuse for behaving so -- he is a bad, bad, faulty and shitty being. He is also a huge cocksucker that chases away any potential friend he could make, that's just a trait of his broken personality. Humans are weak, shitty and inevitably have evil in them, sometimes too big to overcome completely, some days you are good, other days you're too tired and the evil shows. We all carry the heavy burden of self interest, greed and egocentrism cast upon us by evolution, it's imprinted in our brains, sometimes it's too strong to not let it show. Please remember LRS argues to not glorify anyone -- partly for said reasons -- and by that drummyfish never wishes to be praised or glorified, he only wishes for you to take the ideas he offers, think about them and take the good you find. Drummyfish tries to be good but inevitably he won't always succeed -- follow ideas, not people.