2024-01-04

poetry/f/fatali.txt

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+fatali
+2018-12-01
+
+***
+
+DEFILED
+DEMURED
+LOST IN CENSURE
+
+CAST OUT
+MADE BLIND
+NO LONGER DIVINE
+
+I WILL MARK MY OWN FATE
+I WILL CHOOSE MY OWN PATH
+OR I WILL GO UP IN FLAMES
+FOR THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE
+
+AND AT THE EDGE OF ETERNITY
+YOU WILL ASK:
+WHO WAS I?
+WHO COULD HAVE I BEEN?
+
+If Neocities was paradise,
+then I am Eve
+from Eden, no longer beholden
+for daring to believe
+something verboten
+
+and much like there, the fediverse is yet the same
+being queer's the praxis, shitposting's the game
+and yet we tear each up with our words
+with misunderstanding
+and thunder
+like we've become animals
+in yet another herd
+
+you let blind anger run through your veins
+consuming you from the inside
+like a wildfire run rampant and free
+
+you become like a damned animal
+at the slightest provocation
+a hellhound, made for nothing more than weeping
+and gnashing of meat and bone alike
+
+not fit for civilization
+or wilderness alike
+where do you belong? the air?
+or on the end of a pike
+
+you see a picture of your fave,
+you click without processing
+like an automaton
+click, click, click
+
+does this bring you fulfillment?
+does this satisfy your soul?
+a machine for someone else's validation
+senselessly trying to fill a hole
+
+is this the fate you wanted?
+is this the end you meant to procure?
+and if you answer yes:
+are you really so sure?
+
+begone, ye ghosts! lest you turn me
+into a fictional entity I was never meant to be
+I'll admit I've my doubts; I'll admit I've no sure mind
+but in my life, this is mine and mine alone to find
+
+***
+
+CC BY-NC-SA 4.0 (c) Vane Vander