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One Less Box
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2021-07-17
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For five years,
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I was a chalice
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full of malice
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and tears
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as I tried to suss out a gender.
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Am I fluid?
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Am I two or three?
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Am I even part of the binary?
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Or shall I eschew the glass,
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pack it up and address it
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to the person who knew me last,
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label: return to sender?
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The more time I spend alone,
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the more unnecessary it feels
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to keep others in the know,
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the more I realize I'd rather keep,
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not concealed,
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but not subjected to the public's heat.
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The more time I spend in solitude,
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the more I feel gratitude
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towards past me
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for only having "come out" to two or three
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with no proclamation,
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no decree
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of new name and pronouns
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to accomodate my long-sought androgyny.
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Maybe the reason
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why I wished others would perceive
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me as nonbinary
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was so that they'd see
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me not as female
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but as human.
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***
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CC BY-NC-SA 4.0 (c) Vane Vander
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