New poem: Abortion I

poetry/a/abortion1.txt

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+Abortion I
+2023-04-11
+
+***
+
+I went my entire education
+without being handed a box
+with plastic fetuses in row,
+each one with more time to grow
+before being aborted
+and potential life snuffed out,
+deemed nobody's loss.
+
+Now I know the lesson was fake,
+that far more time it takes
+to grow to that kind of size,
+that at that early of a stage
+it's dubious they feel that pain.
+(You have no right
+to force me to provide
+for you with my body against my will.)
+Barely aware of being alive,
+much less the difference
+between the light
+of consciousness
+and the dark that came before.
+
+A lima bean Dad did abort.
+
+Buried it with his two hands.
+With two hands, the dirt he ferried
+from backyard, wiped on his pants,
+powder, mud, dust, root, clump.
+
+"Your time in the womb is up.
+A promise that come a decade
+I so hastily made
+not thinking of the future
+I must now with no regrets break.
+Dissolved the ties with pop of pill
+so that no blood must my hands spill.
+The damage to you is only collateral.
+The benefits are all addressed to me."
+
+Bury my heart
+in the backyard,
+leave it behind
+in the move to different sky.
+It still beats.
+
+It still beats.
+
+It still beats.
+
+It still beats, Dad, did you know?
+Far away where my feet
+no longer legally can go.
+I was so young, only sixteen,
+at the start of my journey,
+without warning come
+to an ending abrupt.
+The story that is written
+without thought
+of plot
+or pacing
+and only one character half-fleshed out, you her effacing.
+
+I can only wonder
+into what I would have grown
+if this hadn't happened,
+if you'd just left me alone.
+
+***
+
+CC BY-NC-SA 4.0 (c) Vane Vander

poetry/index.gmi

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 => a/algingu.txt	Algingu
 => a/aria_houndz_it.txt	Aria Houndz It
 => a/agloe.txt	Agloe
+=> a/abortion1.txt	Abortion I
 
 ## B
 => b/better-version.txt	Better Version

poetry/index.gph

@@ -13,6 +13,7 @@ iA
 0Algingu	a/algingu.txt
 0Aria Houndz It	a/aria_houndz_it.txt
 0Agloe	a/agloe.txt
+0Abortion I	a/abortion1.txt
 
 iB	
 0Birdgazing	b/birdgazing.txt

poetry/index.html

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 	├── <a href="./a/">a</a><br>
 	│   ├── <a href="./a/a-birthday-every-day.txt">a-birthday-every-day.txt</a><br>
+	│   ├── <a href="./a/abortion1.txt">abortion1.txt</a><br>
 	│   ├── <a href="./a/access.txt">access.txt</a><br>
 	│   ├── <a href="./a/agloe.txt">agloe.txt</a><br>
 	│   ├── <a href="./a/airborne.txt">airborne.txt</a><br>
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