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<p>Going back to the main Utopia window, I went to the "Search" tab and started typing in random terms. The first one that came to mind was "music", which returned the domain... "justinbiebermusic.com". That site didn't load. I tried "utopia", which returned "darkutopia" and "utopia-google", neither of which loaded. (uNS doesn't require a domain to have a TLD, and you can just add whatever arbitrary TLDs you want to your registered domain.) Most domains were registered sometime in 2019, but I couldn't sort for new ones because clicking the "registration date" title on the table doesn't trigger any sorting. I looked in the manual to see if I was doing something wrong, but the troubleshooting section only gave instructions to reinstall the proxy configuration file and nothing else. The manual also claimed that I could go to "http://utopia" to test if the browser was working, but <em>that</em> domain also timed out. The only uNS site I could get working was "http://crp"... which is an internal crptocurrency exchange.</p>
<p><img class="big" src="../../../img/NoUtopia.png" alt="http://utopia: Server Not Found"></p>
<p>I thought about setting up a test site in Utopia. My usual <em>modus operandi</em> when it comes to darknets is to eschew any centralized domain service, like how I2P users insist you register a domain on one of three barely-functional services: one of them tried to set up <code>mayvaneday.i2p</code> without my knowledge, but I blocked requests from that domain pretty quickly- and just use the public key I'm given. So I opened up the uNS registry and went to "Packet Forwarding", but Utopia insisted that I could only set up packet forwarding after I bought a uNS record, costing about 10 CRP. (At the time of writing, <a href="https://web.archive.org/web/20230107220410/https://nomics.com/markets/crp2-crypton/usd-united-states-dollar">that's about $6.25</a>.)</p>
<p>I thought about setting up a test site in Utopia. My usual <em>modus operandi</em> when it comes to darknets is to eschew any centralized domain service, like how I2P users insist you register a domain on one of three barely-functional services- one of them tried to set up <code>mayvaneday.i2p</code> without my knowledge, but I blocked requests from that domain pretty quickly- and just use the public key I'm given. So I opened up the uNS registry and went to "Packet Forwarding", but Utopia insisted that I could only set up packet forwarding after I bought a uNS record, costing about 10 CRP. (At the time of writing, <a href="https://web.archive.org/web/20230107220410/https://nomics.com/markets/crp2-crypton/usd-united-states-dollar">that's about $6.25</a>.)</p>
<p>So I can't chat or email because I have nobody to do it with. I can't play chess by myself. (And there are better ways to do so.) I can't access websites unless it's to buy a shitcoin. I can't host my own website because I don't have the money to burn on shitcoins for a network where almost none of the websites work. There's nothing for me to do on Utopia. So I closed the program and copied my <code>strace</code> capture to the host computer and shut down the VM.</p>
<p>Now for the allegations of the Utopia client being malware...</p>
<p>According to <code>strace</code>, Utopia did not attempt to access any sensitive files in my home directory. If it had tried to access something sensitive like <code>~/.ssh</code>, it would have shown up in the logs, even if the file or directory was nonexistent. In my home directory, Utopia accessed:</p>

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<blockquote>"The first time you meet an angel, you get a horrible beating."<br>- Terry A. Davis</blockquote>

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# MayVaneDay ASS (https://tilde.town/~dzwdz/ass/) feed
2023-04-13 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/a/abortion2.txt Abortion II
2023-04-11 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/a/abortion1.txt Abortion I
2023-04-05 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/h/hutch_of_were.txt Hutch of Were
2023-04-02 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/a/agloe.txt Agloe
2023-04-01 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2023/april/LiveUSB.html I spent a week using Tails as my only operating system
2023-03-18 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/b/biz_ego_gun.txt Biz Ego Gun
2023-03-09 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/c/the_clitbone.txt the clitbone
2023-03-06 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/a/aria_houndz_it.txt Aria Houndz It
2023-03-04 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/e/eager_job.txt Eager Job
2023-03-02 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/c/chow_locales.txt Chow Locales
2023-03-01 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2023/march/theatrhythm.html THEATRHYTHM FINAL BAR LINE has kinda grown on me
2023-02-23 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/h/hyperloop.txt Hyperloop
2023-02-21 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/l/latch-or-perch.txt Latch Or Perch
2023-02-18 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/g/gaze_rank.txt Gaze Rank
2023-02-17 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/l/lawliet.txt Lawliet
2023-02-16 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/a/algingu.txt Algingu
2023-02-15 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/y/yasir.txt Yasir
2023-02-01 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2023/february/utopia.html I installed Utopia so you don't have to
2023-01-23 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/s/small_world_theory.txt Small World Theory
2023-01-01 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2023/january/UterusPin.html Uterus Pin Perler Bead Pattern
2023-01-01 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/z/zircons_beacon.txt ZIRCON'S BEACON
2022-12-07 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/december/web3-2.html Broke Dumbass Attempts To Web3 Again
2022-11-22 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/november/asking.html It's insane, the things you can get simply by asking
2022-11-01 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/november/ld.html Woman who would have been revered prophetess 4,000 years ago now relegated to clicking links, opening tabs
2022-10-25 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/october/email.html Anonymous email is still alive and well
2022-10-24 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/october/ovarit.html Short statement on the Ovarit situation
2022-10-06 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/october/yggdrasil.html Theoretical design for a female-only internet
2022-09-15 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/september/browsers.html Fellas, Is It Fascist To Block Suspicious Web Traffic?
2022-09-13 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/september/boox.html A week with the Onyx Boox Note Air
2022-09-04 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/september/gamutto.html A Very Long String Of Gamutto Moments
2022-08-28 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/august/kiwi.html The death of Kiwi Farms doesn't mean the end of free speech
2022-08-17 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/august/beres.html I uninstalled my RSS feed reader
2022-08-06 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/august/urbit.html Urbit is still basically just a glorified chatroom
2022-08-01 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/august/separatism-redux.html Separatism: Redux
2022-07-11 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/july/android_darknet.html The state of darknet access on Android
2022-07-07 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/july/web3.html Broke Dumbass Attempts To Web3
2022-06-18 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/r/reciprocada.txt Reciprocada
2022-06-16 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/june/mistakes.html I Love Deleting Things, Actually
2022-06-14 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/n/none-nuns.txt None Nuns
2022-06-11 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/m/mitad1.txt Mitad-marida I
2022-06-09 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/june/purity.html Purity Spiral
2022-06-07 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/m/morgana.txt Morgana
2022-06-05 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/h/hotdog.txt hotdog
2022-06-03 https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/june/MUHWEBSITE.html Having a website is not revolutionary
2022-06-01 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/y/YOU-NEED-TO-KNOW.txt YOU NEED TO KNOW
2022-05-26 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/r/reynar.txt Reynar
2022-05-25 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/u/under-my-fingernails.txt Under My Fingernails
2022-05-24 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/g/gradation.txt Gradation
2022-05-21 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/g/grey.txt The Grey
2022-05-20 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/c/cultivator.txt Cultivator
2022-05-19 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/t/tissue.txt Tissue Sample

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<h2>Welcome to MayVaneDay Studios</h2>
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<p><a href="./poetry/f/firebrand.txt">[FIREBRAND]</a> <a href="./poetry/w/watershed.txt">[WATERSHED]</a> <a href="./poetry/e/earthbound.txt">[EARTHBOUND]</a> <a href="./poetry/a/airborne.txt">[AIRBORNE]</a> <a href="./poetry/z/zircons_beacon.txt"><b>[ZIRCON'S BEACON]</b></a></p>
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<h3>My books:</h3>
<h4>Poetry</h4>
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<h3>Announcement Box</h3>
<ul>
<li>2023-04-25: I've been employed for about a month. Gotten perfect scores on all my performance reviews so far. Life is okay for now.</li>
<li>2023-04-13: Codeberg mirror is down until Forgejo implements user blocking.</li>
<li>2023-03-18: Doing better than I expected. Being forced to deal with a former online friend turned stalker is stressful, but I'm managing. Mostly I'm just disappointed in the male incapability to understand the words "leave me alone". <b>I finally have gainful employment again</b> as long as I can pass a background check next week.</li>
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<a href="./poetry/">[Poetry]</a>
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<p><a href="./women.md">The big list of women who did things</a></p>
<p><a href="./feed.ass">ASS Feed</a></p>
<p><a href="./identity/index.html">Identity &amp; Contact</a></p>
<p><a href="./public.gpg">My GPG key</a></p>
<p><a href="https://letsdecentralize.org">Let's Decentralize</a></p>
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<a href="http://yggdrasil.mayvaneday.art">[Yggdrasil]</a>
<a href="http://127.0.0.1:8888/USK@Up0ipQCQjyY2PaGofU-P63kJMb54E0~2xZiUnyxPypM,rGmJhPDVou6DwS6Eh23sZ93hVbDaA6v4D5l3vWsN-oY,AQACAAE/mayvaneday/-1/">[Freenet]</a>
<a href="http://meynethaffeecapsvfphrcnfrx44w2nskgls2juwitibvqctk2plvhqd.onion">[Tor]</a>
<a href="https://codeberg.org/lethe/mayvaneday">[Git]</a>
<a href="https://git.disroot.org/lethe/mayvaneday">[Git]</a>
<a href="gemini://meynethaffeecapsvfphrcnfrx44w2nskgls2juwitibvqctk2plvhqd.onion">[Gemini over Tor]</a>
<a href="spartan://meynethaffeecapsvfphrcnfrx44w2nskgls2juwitibvqctk2plvhqd.onion">[Spartan over Tor]</a>
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## Y
=> y/YOU-NEED-TO-KNOW.txt YOU NEED TO KNOW
=> y/yasir.txt Yasir
=> y/yuzu.tzt Yuzu
## Z
=> z/zircons_beacon.txt ZIRCON'S BEACON

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iY
0YOU NEED TO KNOW y/YOU-NEED-TO-KNOW.txt
0Yasir y/yasir.txt
0Yuzu y/yuzu.txt
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│   └── <a href="./w/wme.txt">wme.txt</a><br>
├── <a href="./y/">y</a><br>
│   ├── <a href="./y/yasir.txt">yasir.txt</a><br>
│   └── <a href="./y/YOU-NEED-TO-KNOW.txt">YOU-NEED-TO-KNOW.txt</a><br>
│   ├── <a href="./y/YOU-NEED-TO-KNOW.txt">YOU-NEED-TO-KNOW.txt</a><br>
│   └── <a href="./y/yuzu.txt">yuzu.txt</a><br>
└── <a href="./z/">z</a><br>
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; └── <a href="./z/zircons_beacon.txt">zircons_beacon.txt</a><br>
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Yuzu
2023-04-25
***
It looks like
you and I
will be parting ways soon,
Yuzu.
You saw me through both colleges
in Hell
and on that sunny hill,
pushing through Fryer's Inferno
under the gaze of a manager who told
me to go kill myself all the way to this
cubicle where I sit in terror's grip
and not a moment less.
You witnessed my dysphoria peak,
the first time Jett reached
out a hand to raise me from the sheets
even though then I did not yet know her name,
chaotic blood's first fallout, the blame,
escaping mid-night with every written work I could lay
claim to. You knew me as Rinea, Ikky, Lucine,
my legal name, my throwaways, Lethe.
You saw me poke at the universe's edges, analyze
myself under a microscope
flipped around, freak out at every new surprise,
its possibilities, its burdens, its fresh sorrow.
And what is the reward for this? A box
in the mail from the carrier,
packed up soft
and tender
and given to the nice lady at the post office.
After that? Could be anywhere.
Recycled and stripped for minerals
or refurbished and sent to the other side of the world.
Someone less fortunate who can't afford newer.
I hope her soul shines
bright
like mine.
I hope she's a girl
in bitter need of a drastic life change.
Who knows, maybe our paths will cross some day.
***
CC BY-NC-SA 4.0 (c) Vane Vander

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Unfinished, obviously.
Last updated: 2023-04-13
Last updated: 2023-04-25
## Art
- [Aphra Behn](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aphra_Behn): one of the first English women to earn her living by her writing
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- [June Almeida](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/June_Almeida): discovered the coronavirus group of viruses
- [Leila Denmark](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/Leila_Denmark): synthesised the first vaccine for pertussis (whooping cough)
- [Gertrude Elion](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/Gertrude_B._Elion?lang=en): biochemist and Nobel Prize winner instrumental in the creation of the first antiviral drug widely used to fight AIDS
- [Rosalind Franklin](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosalind Franklin): discovered the double-helix formation of DNA
- [Rosalind Franklin](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosalind_Franklin): discovered the double-helix formation of DNA
- [Barbara McClintock](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Barbara_McClintock): discovered that genes can move between chromosomes
- [Rita Levi-Montalcini](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rita_Levi-Montalcini): discovered nerve growth factor
- [Andromachi Papanikolaou](https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andromachi_Papanikolaou): key factor in the development of the pap smear test
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## Science
- [Patricia Bath](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Patricia_Bath): inventor of the Laserphaco Probe
- [Ethel Bauer](https://web.archive.org/web/20220716220051/https://www.nasa.gov/centers/marshall/history/ethel-heinecke-bauer.html): planned lunar trajectories for the Apollo program, critical to 13's safe return
- [Katie Bouman](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/Katie_Bouman?lang=en): led the development of the algorithm that took the first image of a black hole
- [Jocelyn Bell Burnell](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jocelyn_Bell_Burnell): discovered first pulsar
- [Annie Jump Cannon](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Annie_Jump_Cannon): developed the first stellar classification system; classified almost 400,000 stars
- [Cecilia Payne-Gaposchkin](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/Cecilia_Payne-Gaposchkin?lang=en): discovered what stars are made out of
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- [Maria Telkes](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/M%C3%A1ria_Telkes): co-built first solar-power-heated heated home with Eleanor Raymond
- [Marie Tharp](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marie_Tharp): mapped the floor of the Atlantic Ocean; proved the theory of continential drift
- [Chien-Shiung Wu](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chien-Shiung_Wu): first woman to become president of the American Physical Society; worked on the Manhattan Project and proved that parity is not conserved
- [Maryna Viazovska](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/Maryna_Viazovska?lang=en): solved the sphere packing problem in dimensions 8 and 24
- [...and many more](https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_female_scientists_before_the_20th_century)
## Social Change
- [Claudette Colvin](https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Claudette_Colvin): pioneer of the 1950s civil rights movement; efused to give up her bus seat nine months before Rosa Parks did
- [Temple Grandin](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Temple_Grandin): one of the first public figures to publically come out as Autistic; animal welfare activist that campaigned for humane treatment of cattle in beef processing plants
- [Maura Healey](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/Maura_Healey?lang=en): first open lesbian elected attorney general of a USA state, one of the first LGBT governors of a USA state, and first woman elected governor of the state of Massachusetts
- [Judith Heumann](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Judith_Heumann): held the longest sit-in in a government building for the enactment of Section 504 of the Rehabilitation Act of 1973 (civil rights protection for disabled people)
- [Qiu Jin](https://archive.md/rhArg): Chinese revolutionary, poet, and early feminist
- [Elizabeth Peratrovich](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/Elizabeth_Peratrovich?lang=en): instrumental in the passing of the USA's first anti-discrimination law
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