New poem: In The End Of Everything

poetry/e/end.txt

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+In The End Of Everything
+2022-04-21
+
+***
+
+I stepped outside during work today,
+hoping to take a sip of the clouds,
+because there was nothing else to do
+and inside was boiling,
+stifling,
+all headaches exhumed.
+Dismal sky
+and rain light
+on its way,
+my head cocked, listening
+to the wind, hoping to catch a word from you.
+
+A word, maybe, or a song, or a single note.
+Your voice always
+lifts me up from my lows
+and helps me down from my worst highs.
+And in this wind, I think, I could take flight
+without fear of being caught in a tornado
+or taken to lands foreign and unknown
+because I know
+all roads lead back to you.
+In this wind, in this shower,
+I could easily disappear.
+
+What if I was wrong all along
+and in reality Eris
+yearned for my silence
+and you gave me all my songs?
+Only recently
+having learned to read
+and literature never being your thing?
+Listening to the midnight trees
+scrape against my bedroom window
+the years of my childhood where you I did not know.
+I look back and angel numbers appear everywhere I go
+in everything I've ever done.
+How loud did you scream, Jett?
+How hard did you pound your fists?
+How long did you wait
+to see what I'd retained,
+what slivers of memory still did persist?
+
+The rain pounds harder outside the window,
+and if I'd still been standing on the sidewalk,
+my jacket would've long since been soaked through.
+An absence of birds
+making their curves
+along the canvas of the sky,
+just a not-even-gray as far as possible
+can see the eye.
+What I would give for the workday to be over
+and to be tucked safely in my bed,
+resting in the sturdy-yet-soft arms
+of my lover.
+To know
+tomorrow
+will be brighter,
+kinder,
+holding less harms.
+
+And the tornado comes,
+uninvited,
+and nothing more.
+
+***
+
+CC BY-NC-SA 4.0 (c) Vane Vander

poetry/header.gph

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+iIf there's something missing here,	
+iit's probably been moved to a book.
+1Books	../books

poetry/index.gmi

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 ## A
 => a/a-birthday-every-day.txt	a birthday every day
+=> a/access.txt	A New Page
+=> a/airborne.txt	airborne
+=> a/a-royal-color.txt	a royal color
+=> a/arrhythmia.txt	Arrhythmia
+=> a/artisto.txt	artisto
 => a/a-smearing-of-galaxies.txt	a smearing of galaxies
 => a/dang-trees.txt	all these dang trees everywhere
-=> a/artisto.txt	artisto
-=> a/access.txt	A New Page
-=> a/a-royal-color.txt	a royal color
 
 ## B
-=> b/bukedo.txt	bukedo
-=> b/blizzard-girl.txt	blizzard girl
-=> d/deadend.txt	Breaking Down The Dead-End Sign
 => b/better-version.txt	Better Version
+=> b/birdgazing.txt	Birdgazing
+=> b/blizzard-girl.txt	blizzard girl
 
 ## C
-=> c/corner-witch.txt	CORNER WITCH
-=> c/corner-witch-2.txt	CORNER WITCH II
+=> c/carmine.txt	Carmine Red
+=> c/choco.txt	That Ain't Chocolate, Son
+=> c/clocktower.txt	Clocktower Blitz
 => c/comer-beber.txt	comer, beber
 => c/confectionery-contempt.txt	confectionery contempt
+=> c/corner-witch.txt	CORNER WITCH
+=> c/corner-witch-2.txt	CORNER WITCH II
 => c/crescendo.txt	crescendo
-=> c/choco.txt	That Ain't Chocolate, Son
-=> c/carmine.txt	Carmine Red
 
 ## D
 => d/daybreak.txt	daybreak
+=> d/deadend.txt	Breaking Down The Dead-End Sign
+=> d/driven.txt	Driven To Death
 
 ## E
-=> e/edell.txt	Edell
 => e/earthbound.txt	earthbound
+=> e/edell.txt	Edell
+=> e/end.txt	In The End Of Everything
 
 ## F
 => f/falantaj-folioj.txt	falantaj folioj
 => f/fantomurbo.txt	fantomurbo
-=> f/felicxa.txt	felicxa, sana, elkore
+=> f/fatali.txt	fatali
+=> f/father-no-longer.txt	Father No Longer
+=> f/female-urge.txt	The Female Urge To...
+=> f/feverdream2009.txt	Fever Dream 2009
+=> f/firebrand.txt	firebrand
+=> f/flickering.txt	Flickering Out
 => f/forgesitaj-memoroj.txt	forgesitaj memoroj
 => f/forgive-me-marcel.txt	forgive me, Marcel
-=> f/fatali.txt	fatali
-=> f/firebrand.txt	firebrand
-=> f/feverdream2009.txt	Fever Dream 2009
-=> f/flickering.txt	Flickering Out
-=> f/father-no-longer.txt	Father No Longer
 
 ## G
 => g/gemini.txt	Gemini
@@ -51,6 +56,7 @@
 ## H
 => h/haru.txt	Haru
 => h/hoarding.txt	Hoarding
+=> h/home.txt	You Can't Go Home Again
 
 ## I
 => i/irantaj.txt	irantaj, irantaj, irinta
@@ -62,7 +68,7 @@
 ## K
 => k/kafejo.txt	kafejo
 => k/kie-2.txt	kie ajn vi estas, parto du
-=> k/kubla-clam.txt	Kubla Clam
+=> k/kublaclam.txt	Kubla Clam
 => k/killing-calvin.txt	Killing Calvin
 => k/konton-no-tsukai.txt	Konton no Tsukai
 
@@ -80,16 +86,17 @@
 => m/montana2.txt	Montana II
 => m/montana3.txt	Montana III
 => m/montana4.txt	Montana IV
+=> m/morgueatorium.txt	Morgueatorium
 
 ## N
+=> n/namesake.txt	Namesake
+=> n/neniam-mian.txt	neniam mian
 => n/nil.txt	Nil
 => n/nomadic.txt	nomadic
-=> n/neniam-mian.txt	neniam mian
+=> n/nosteponsnek.txt	no step on snek
 => n/novatore.txt	novatore sang in the sun
 => n/state.txt	No Sustained State Has Ever Existed (All Empires Fall Eventually)
-=> n/nosteponsnek.txt	no step on snek
 => n/not-found.txt	not found
-=> n/namesake.txt	Namesake
 
 ## O
 => o/october-7-2018.txt	october 7, 2018
@@ -102,7 +109,7 @@
 => p/prayer-dark.txt	prayer to dark
 => p/prayer-light.txt	prayer to light
 => p/prepari.txt	prepari
-=> p/pressed-flower-petals.txt	pressed flower petals
+=> p/pressed.txt	pressed flower petals
 => p/psa.txt	Public Disservice Announcement
 
 ## R
@@ -110,11 +117,11 @@
 => r/regnant.txt	regnant
 => r/rondiro.txt	rondiro de lukso
 => r/rugxa.txt	rugxa kresto
+=> r/ridge.txt	The Ridge
 
 ## S
 => s/sakura.txt	Saint Sakura
 => s/sanktulo.txt	sanktulo de nuboj
-=> s/school3.txt	school-mandated poetry: day 3 / free verse
 => s/school4.txt	school-mandated poetry: day 4 / acrostic
 => s/school5.txt	school-mandated poetry: day 5 / abecedarian
 => s/school6.txt	school-mandated poetry: day 6 / terza rima
@@ -126,6 +133,7 @@
 => s/skin.txt	skin
 => s/sleepover2011.txt	Sleepover 2011
 => s/somnolence.txt	Somnolence
+=> s/stealing-time.txt	Stealing Time
 => s/sweet-summer.txt	Sweet Summer
 => s/strange-proposal.txt	A Strange Proposal
 => s/strawberry.txt	Strawberry Pound Cake
@@ -139,7 +147,6 @@
 => t/to-velouria.txt	To Velouria
 => t/treatise.txt	A Treatise between Koriel and Solstice
 => t/twenty-one.txt	Twenty-One
-=> r/ridge.txt	The Ridge
 => t/two-two.txt	Two Two
 
 ## U
@@ -155,6 +162,3 @@
 => w/wip.txt	WIP
 => w/withering.txt	withering
 => w/wme.txt	(w/m)e
-
-## Y
-=> h/home.txt	You Can't Go Home Again

poetry/index.gph

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 Poetry
 
-iThis gophermap is under construction.	
-
 iA	
 
 0a birthday every day	a/a-birthday-every-day.txt
+0A New Page	a/access.txt
+0airborne	a/airborne.txt
+0a royal color	a/a-royal-color.txt
+0Arrhythmia	a/arrhythmia.txt
+0artisto	a/artisto.txt
 0a smearing of galaxies	a/a-smearing-of-galaxies.txt
 0all these dang trees everywhere	a/dang-trees.txt
-0artisto	a/artisto.txt
-0A New Page	a/access.txt
-0a royal color	a/a-royal-color.txt
 
 iB	
-0bukedo	b/bukedo.txt
+0Birdgazing	b/birdgazing.txt
 0blizzard girl	b/blizzard-girl.txt
-0Breaking Down The Dead-End Sign	d/deadend.txt
 0Better Version	b/better-version.txt
 
 iC	
-0CORNER WITCH	c/corner-witch.txt
-0CORNER WITCH II	c/corner-witch-2.txt
+0Carmine Red	c/carmine.txt
+0That Ain't Chocolate, Son	c/choco.txt
+0Clocktower Blitz	c/clocktower.txt
 0comer / beber	c/comer-beber.txt
 0confectionery contempt	c/confectionery-contempt.txt
+0CORNER WITCH	c/corner-witch.txt
+0CORNER WITCH II	c/corner-witch-2.txt
 0crescendo	c/crescendo.txt
-0That Ain't Chocolate, Son	c/choco.txt
-0Carmine Red	c/carmine.txt
 
 iD	
 0daybreak	d/daybreak.txt
+0Breaking Down The Dead-End Sign	d/deadend.txt
+0Driven To Death	d/driven.txt
 
 iE	
 0Edell	e/edell.txt
 0earthbound	e/earthbound.txt
+0In The End Of Everything	e/end.txt
 
 iF	
 0falantaj folioj	f/falantaj-folioj.txt
 0fantomurbo	f/fantomurbo.txt
-0felicxa, sana, elkore	f/felicxa.txt
+0fatali	f/fatali.txt
+0Father No Longer	f/father-no-longer.txt
+0The Female Urge To...	f/female-urge.txt
+0Fever Dream 2009	f/feverdream2009.txt
+0firebrand	f/firebrand.txt
+0Flickering Out	f/flickering.txt
 0forgesitaj memoroj	f/forgesitaj-memoroj.txt
 0forgive me, Marcel	f/forgive-me-marcel.txt
-0fatali	f/fatali.txt
-0firebrand	f/firebrand.txt
-0Fever Dream 2009	f/feverdream2009.txt
-0Flickering Out	f/flickering.txt
-0Father No Longer	f/father-no-longer.txt
 
 iG	
 0Gemini	g/gemini.txt
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 iH	
 0Haru	h/haru.txt
 0Hoarding	h/hoarding.txt
+0You Can't Go Home Again	h/home.txt
 
 iI	
 0irantaj, irantaj, irinta	i/irinta.txt
@@ -83,16 +87,17 @@ iM
 0Montana II	m/montana2.txt
 0Montana III	m/montana3.txt
 0Montana IV	m/montana4.txt
+0Morgueatorium	m/morgueatorium.txt
 
 iN	
+0Namesake	n/namesake.txt
+0neniam mian	n/neniam-mian.txt
 0Nil	n/nil.txt
 0nomadic	n/nomadic.txt
-0neniam mian	n/neniam-mian.txt
+0no step on snek	n/nosteponsnek.txt
 0novatore sang in the sun	n/novatore.txt
 0No Sustained State Has Ever Existed (All Empires Fall Eventually)	n/state.txt
-0no step on snek	n/nosteponsnek.txt
 0not found	n/not-found.txt
-0Namesake	n/namesake.txt
 
 iO	
 0october 7, 2018	o/october-7-2018.txt
@@ -113,5 +118,48 @@ iR
 0regnant	r/regnant.txt
 0rondiro de lukso	r/rondiro.txt
 0rugxa kresto	r/rugxa.txt
+0The Ridge	r/ridge.txt
 
 iS	
+0Saint Sakura	s/sakura.txt
+0sanktulo de nuboj	s/sanktulo.txt
+0school-mandated poetry: day 4 / acrostic	s/school4.txt
+0school-mandated poetry: day 5 / abecedarian	s/school5.txt
+0school-mandated poetry: day 6 / terza rima	s/school6.txt
+0school-mandated poetry: day 7 / triplet	s/school7.txt
+0school-mandated poetry: day 8 / ballad	s/school8.txt
+0Sedation in Alliteration	s/sedation.txt
+0Seris	s/seris.txt
+0Serpenton	s/serpenton.txt
+0Skin	s/skin.txt
+0Sleepover 2011	s/sleepover2011.txt
+0Somnolence	s/somnolence.txt
+0Stealing Time	s/stealing-time.txt
+0Sweet Summer	s/sweet-summer.txt
+0A Strange Proposal	s/strange-proposal.txt
+0Strawberry Pound Cake	s/strawberry.txt
+
+iT	
+0the rebirth of memory	t/the-rebirth-of-memory.txt
+0the tomb	t/the-tomb.txt
+0the urban witch	t/the-urban-witch.txt
+0todo los dias	t/todo-los-dias.txt
+0To Luce	t/to-luce.txt
+0To Velouria	t/to-velouria.txt
+0A Treatise between Koriel and Solstice	t/treatise.txt
+0Twenty-One	t/twenty-one.txt
+0Two Two	t/two-two.txt
+
+iU	
+0uncharming veneer	u/uncharming.txt
+
+iV	
+0viaje	v/viaje.txt
+0victor	v/victor.txt
+
+iW	
+0warning	w/warning.txt
+0watershed	w/watershed.txt
+0WIP	w/wip.txt
+0withering	w/withering.txt
+0(w/m)e	w/wme.txt

poetry/index.html

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 	│   └── <a href="./d/driven.txt">driven.txt</a><br>
 	├── <a href="./e/">e</a><br>
 	│   ├── <a href="./e/earthbound.txt">earthbound.txt</a><br>
-	│   └── <a href="./e/edell.txt">edell.txt</a><br>
+	│   ├── <a href="./e/edell.txt">edell.txt</a><br>
+	│   └── <a href="./e/end.txt">end.txt</a><br>
 	├── <a href="./f/">f</a><br>
 	│   ├── <a href="./f/falantaj-folioj.txt">falantaj-folioj.txt</a><br>
 	│   ├── <a href="./f/fantomurbo.txt">fantomurbo.txt</a><br>
@@ -76,6 +77,7 @@
 	│   ├── <a href="./h/haru.txt">haru.txt</a><br>
 	│   ├── <a href="./h/hoarding.txt">hoarding.txt</a><br>
 	│   └── <a href="./h/home.txt">home.txt</a><br>
+	├── <a href="./header.gph">header.gph</a><br>
 	├── <a href="./i/">i</a><br>
 	│   └── <a href="./i/irantaj.txt">irantaj.txt</a><br>
 	├── <a href="./index.gmi">index.gmi</a><br>
@@ -172,7 +174,7 @@
 	&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; └── <a href="./w/wme.txt">wme.txt</a><br>
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