diff --git a/feed.xml b/feed.xml index 1a9a0a3..2cd4817 100755 --- a/feed.xml +++ b/feed.xml @@ -9,7 +9,56 @@ Vane Vander vanevander@mayvaneday.org - + + + Birdgazing + + https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/b/birdgazing.txt + 2022-04-09 + +
+I locked eyes with a robin this morning,
+sitting outside my bedroom window
+perched on one of the branches of the bush
+that was once a tree, cut down in fear, still adamant to grow.
+I thought of you, helpless in bed, maybe snoring,
+maybe silent as a hush,
+and how I wished I could be there
+to your exhausted body take care.
+
+For I gave you everything I had to give
+for you to claim your future back
+under one condition: that, at the end, you live.
+You burnt every candle down,
+dissolved every bathtime bomb,
+spent every rainy day stash
+I had,
+even accepted my blood.
+I wish
+it hadn't taken this
+for you to finally accept
+you were the Equinox,
+the harbinger of balance,
+all along.
+
+When I'm with you,
+I feel like I've been born anew.
+My mistakes no longer imposing weight,
+the past's pain
+all washed away.
+Or about to be reborn,
+invalid, palliate,
+you gently taking care of me
+until arrives my death date.
+Your touch is so tender, my love,
+healing, magic, sunlight.
+You know I'd do anything for you.
+So let me nurse you back to life.
+
+ ]]> + + + Clocktower Blitz @@ -260,65 +309,4 @@ I hope I'm fully with you the next one. - - The Female Urge To... - - https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/f/female-urge.txt - 2022-03-11 - -
-If I was the one most despised,
-then why
-was I
-the one that survived?
-
-Why did my siblings deign,
-seeing death was imminent
-and Chronos would get his way
-to remake the world in his image,
-decide
-that the one who also destroys
-and has never for a single moment known love
-be the one who the divine
-genocide
-survived?
-
-Which one of my siblings looked at me and thought
-that what the infant world needed was destruction's favorite god?
-Who spun their ceasing gaze
-towards my way
-and blessed me human so I Chronos forgot?
-
-It's a gaze I've come
-to become
-familiar with,
-this insistence
-that I'm not a burden,
-that I'm not by presence hurting,
-that to keep breathing I don't have to earn.
-
-But no matter how many times I fish for my mother's pity,
-I can't bring myself to, when her mouth makes the sound
-that I'm a blessing to all those around,
-her strained declaration believe.
-
-"But if you knew
-all that I've put people through,
-would you
-still feel the same?"
-
-Sharpened by heartache,
-tempered by pain,
-forged in despair,
-I, bond-breaking blade?
-
-*Whatever you did is dead and gone
-and in so many worlds away.
-There are enough armchair Christs.
-Stop self-inflicting pain.*
-
- ]]> - - - diff --git a/poetry/b/birdgazing.txt b/poetry/b/birdgazing.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..3f30f30 --- /dev/null +++ b/poetry/b/birdgazing.txt @@ -0,0 +1,46 @@ +Birdgazing +2022-04-09 + +*** + +I locked eyes with a robin this morning, +sitting outside my bedroom window +perched on one of the branches of the bush +that was once a tree, cut down in fear, still adamant to grow. +I thought of you, helpless in bed, maybe snoring, +maybe silent as a hush, +and how I wished I could be there +to your exhausted body take care. + +For I gave you everything I had to give +for you to claim your future back +under one condition: that, at the end, you live. +You burnt every candle down, +dissolved every bathtime bomb, +spent every rainy day stash +I had, +even accepted my blood. +I wish +it hadn't taken this +for you to finally accept +you were the Equinox, +the harbinger of balance, +all along. + +When I'm with you, +I feel like I've been born anew. +My mistakes no longer imposing weight, +the past's pain +all washed away. +Or about to be reborn, +invalid, palliate, +you gently taking care of me +until arrives my death date. +Your touch is so tender, my love, +healing, magic, sunlight. +You know I'd do anything for you. +So let me nurse you back to life. + +*** + +CC BY-NC-SA 4.0 (c) Vane Vander diff --git a/poetry/index.html b/poetry/index.html index d8e99d6..7bb4acb 100644 --- a/poetry/index.html +++ b/poetry/index.html @@ -37,6 +37,7 @@ │   └── dang-trees.txt
├── b
│   ├── better-version.txt
+ │   ├── birdgazing.txt
│   └── blizzard-girl.txt
├── c
│   ├── carmine.txt
@@ -171,7 +172,7 @@     └── wme.txt


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